Something Feels different. As I sit here at the keyboard-almost one o’clock in the morning-something feels completely and irrevocably different. Sweat forms on my brow as I struggle through writer’s block in search of my next sentence.
Writer’s block is maddening, you know. To have an idea or something as simple as introducing yourself to a new crowd of bloggers, to have that next word on the cusp of your fingertips, and yet-nothing.
See what I mean?
Oh. There you are. And here all along, I thought I was just talking to myself. Already, I’ve read and reread my introduction several times, because I want you to like my blog, reader. Yes, I want you to like it. You may not agree with my politics or conspiracy theories, but I want you to like it.
Some people take politics too seriously, I think. After all, I should know. At the height of my glory (cough), I was obsessed with not only politics, but conspiracy theories. For days, fictitious arguments with other people would rage in my head (I wish I were kidding about this part). The Kennedy assassination. 9/11. Bilderberg. The Council on Foreign Relations. How could someone not connect the dots?!
The world seemed to be an abysmal failure in my mind. And then, something happened. My marriage hit a brick wall. So I stepped away from this place and allowed us the time to heal-or, for me, the time to pray and hang on! But, as time passed, my blog seemed less and less relevant to the demands of my family. But here I am. I missed this place.
Do you like to read? Fiction or non-fiction? Personally, I prefer fiction. Non-fiction takes me too long to get through. But eventually I get there. Be that as it may, reading does something for me that this blog also does-it takes me out of my life and puts me in another universe.
People around me think I’m crazy for liking movies that don’t have a “happy” ending. Let me put it this way: if a story can bring me to tears or provoke me to thought, then the writer has done their job well. I can’t stomach the work by Janet Evonovich (I think that’s how you spell it) or James Patterson.
Have you tried reading either one’s work? Fragmented sentences. Character descriptions in a paragraph. Chapters, like, two or three pages long. Suffice it to say, I don’t like commercial fiction all that well. But if you do, more power to you.
Now, look at this! You’ve caught me rambling. Have I explained why something feels different?
It’s simple. In the four years I’ve left Waylon’s Revolution dormant (albeit with the occasional posting), things have changed. WordPress has changed. The world has changed. Politics, even, have changed. Has the blogging atmosphere changed?
After more than six-hundred posts, I have earned twelve followers. And in these last few days, I have gone through my comments and those who are following my blog, and I have come across a mystery. Most of them have vanished. I mean, they weren’t like myself. I gave a word of caution. I said that I was going away and didn’t know if I’d be back. But nothing from these people. A post one day, nothing the next. Where did they go?
I’ll leave you today and end this post with a final thought. If the midterm elections brought us anything besides the hilarious antics of Christine O’Donnell, I would’ve been happy. It was disheartening to see a woman whom espouses some of the same beliefs that I do fall under so much criticism. However, she had that same hokey, don’t cha now persona that Sarah Palin embodied. And I just couldn’t get behind that. Come to think of it, you don’t hear much from either one anymore.
In October 2010, I made a post titled Christine O’Donnell Ain’t No Friend of Bloggers. This is what she had to say:
What makes bloggers good makes them dangerous. They don’t have to answer to anybody. They can give a local story attention, but they can also publish rumors with no accountability. (Wilmington News-Journal, 1/7/07)
I argued then, as I do now, that others having the same blogging rights brings a natural balance to the blogosphere. And I questioned what that “accountability” would be. Can we really trust the government or some blog censorship to be impartial and respectful of the First Amendment rights of all?
As I said, the world has changed, WordPress has changed, my followers have changed (vanished), but my belief that blogs are one of the few places where the First Amendment is fought for in the trenches of free speech, still persists.
(In case some of you were wondering, according to Wikipedia, Christine O’Donnell works for the Washington Times.)